I know this blog is normally just me blabbering on about how much I love Peeta Mellark and stuff but lately I’ve been having sad thoughts, all stemming from Robin Williams’ suicide. It seems that all people want to talk about is how he did it, how is money and drug use contributed to it, etc. I find myself wanting to try to understand and discuss how a person can do it, from a mental point of view. I don’t understand how a person who was so loved by those who knew him and those who never met him could take his own life. I don’t understand how a father can leave his children. How a husband can leave his wife. How a friend can leave a friend. Over the last day, I’ve been trying to grapple with a concept I now feel I should have already tried to understand.
It’s really hurting me to come to this realization, because it means so many people could go the way Robin went: people don’t commit suicide to be selfish, self-centered, or to purposely ruin the lives of those who care about them. While reading many accounts of suicide survivors, they’ve stated that they genuinely felt that they were better off dead to those who they loved than they were alive. That is so horribly sad. From their point of view, they believe their loved ones would understand or benefit from their deaths.
Now, in no way am I meaning to generalize every person’s reason for suicide. Thankfully, I’ve never been even close to considering taking my own life, so I obviously would have trouble wrapping my head around why a person would contemplate doing such a thing to those they love. It scares me. It terrifies me. What if someone I know and love is having thoughts that I would love life more if they weren’t in it? That is so heartbreaking and makes me tear up.
So now I get to I guess what the point of this post is. If you ever contemplate suicide, and you think it will make your family and friends happier, you are so wrong. You could never be more wrong about anything. Your parents love you. Your friends love you. Think of someone you know right now. Think of someone you love. Imagine that person thinking you don’t want them around anymore, when in reality, their death would destroy you. Now flip it around. You are that person.
We want you here. The fire of life and happiness is always there, you just have to find it. Sometimes you see no other way to get the light back. That’s when the people you love are their to provide the spark you need to life fully again.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And don’t think your pain will go away- it will just be multiplied and given to the very people you thought you were helping by leaving them.
I love you. They love you. Please stay here.
If you know me or not, and every need to talk, I’m here, I’m ready, I won’t ever judge you, and I love you.
Now I’m going to go listen to some Harry Potter music and remind myself what makes me happy to be alive: the stories and art of life that remind me what is so awesome about being a living, feeling, loving human.
Love you to Panem and back, Tributes.
(Also RIP Robin Williams. Thank you for helping me to understand what you must have been feeling, and hopefully it saves a life one day. And thank you for always making me laugh.)
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katniss everdeen — “At some point, you have to stop running and turn around and face whoever wants you dead.The hard thing is finding the courage to do it.”
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It’s crazy to think that for the first two movies I was always on top of things and now I was literally surprised out of nowhere by this trailer LIKE I AM THE WORST BLOGGER?????
She’s the face of the rebellion. They’ll follow her.
"Did you love Annie right away, Finnick?" I ask. "No." A long time passes before he adds, "She crept up on me.”
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